This is all starting to become very clear to me… and by the time I’m done ranting I
think you might agree with me. If I
make a decision to focus my efforts on something, say eating healthy…it starts
out great, a lot of effort goes into it, then something happens and poof just
like that my focus shifts… but…because I know I need to eat healthy, along the way something happens, I have a
thought… and without any effort or pressure voila! I do it with relative ease. Allow me...
Before the end of 2012, I made a conscious decision to
cleanse and purge my self, for health and spiritual reasons. It was my way of releasing all the
pains and hurts I experienced throughout the year and making a conscious effort
to start the New Year off healthy along with mental clarity. I purged in November and began making
healthy food choices. Pork, chicken
and whatever little beef I was still eating was cut out completely and replaced
with lots of vegetables, beans and fish.
While the benefits of eating healthy became apparent in my attitude and
waistline, it wasn’t long before I became bored with consuming fish… Frustrated
I went back to eating chicken… and rice… and… you can imagine what else…
Fast forward to over the past two weeks -- I’ve noticed a
paradigm shift in the way I think.
Automatically, without any consideration, my choices regarding food have
just naturally been healthier. I
even made a salad one evening after work!! OMG you say! I was pleasantly
surprised myself… and that’s what led me to this thought… Is it better to concentrate or not
to? I have found that
concentration sometimes requires an insurmountable amount of energy so why not
use that energy for something taxing and just go with the flow of life for others.
If the thought naturally arrives and the body just
surrenders without a fight can a lack of motivation, procrastination and being
irresolute become nonexistent in our everyday lives? I think so! Just as long as the thought that arrives naturally
isn’t to afflict pain on someone but to improve your being.
I am capable of making loving choices that benefit me.
